life.

taking a step back, it's amazing what my life has been. full of love, happiness, fulfillment, and also filled with struggle, challenges, despair... but i've grown and emerge as a stronger person. and i learn to stand up strong, to help others, to love others and to give back happiness to all around me.

i cannot say that i've always been the nicest person, but i try. nobody is perfect, and nobody can be perfect all the time. many times i feel so drained, having to swallow my disappointments and despair to continue, to put on a smile, gulp down my anger and move on with kindness and patience. but everyday i hope i'm growing and living a better life.

few years ago, i probably say i wanna stay a kid forever, to lead a carefree life, with much less responsibilities. but time waits for no man. and actually, growing up and maturing brings their own set of joy and happiness that have been challenging, but actually, fun.

i have things to complain about in life now, but pales starkly in comparison to the troubles that many others face. i am thankful. deep breaths, and chug on with life. work hard, play hard. love myself and others, and may tomorrow always be a better day than before!

almost a year in dormancy. thoughts.

with the ease of facebook posting, and our perpetual hectic lives with work (and balancing fun), it has been impossible to keep this alive.

feel like i'm drowning in mid-grad sch confusion and frustration. too many things to keep up with, too little time, too inadequate and incapable of coping with them. there is SO much potential i see in the project. there is so much i can envision. i know fully well numerous baby steps are required to get there. i just need to do it. but too many things are catching up to me, gnawing away at my limited energy pack.

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on a lighter, happier side, life has been exciting and fulfilling too (probably taking up a little too much time. lol. but what's life if we don't work hard and play hard right?) several frens around us have keen interest in skiing/boarding, and so we've improved dramatically this season after several trips up to Tahoe this season. proud of ourselves!!! =) spring is coming. and we're headed up for some wine tasting soon! many things coming up for the rest of the year. sis is due in May (EXCITING!!) and so we're going back to sg in june to see the little one! i really really want to go for my fren's wedding in UK this october... it's super ex though, flying the long distance... =( and with fm's sis and co coming to visit in nov-dec (yay! fun!), we really need to save up!! =(((

time flies by too fast, life is too short, money is too hard to come by, embracing work/life/love/passion with all my heart and soul is way too draining... but we shall persevere and light shall shine bright at the end of the tunnel!

Cool apartment transformation

the joy of grad school...

killed several mice today, some scheduled, while others... not so scheduled. unfortunately, the mouse that died was part of an ongoing expt, but i guess fortunately was a somewhat control mouse, so it wasn't quite that a loss. oh well. i've been spending way too many hours on 'dates' wtih my mice. hopefully once the colony is stable and cleaned up, the hours spent on them will decrease somewhat.

i can't believe that i'm reaching the end of my 2nd year of grad school soon...

do random tots still exist?

only in the pristine silence of the night does my tots come clean...

im tired of reaching within myself to find strength. time to reach out.

it dawned on me that my extended absence from home is making me lose touch with my friends.

my world revolves around my cells. i have enough expts on my to-do list for two grad students.

time to regroup. make mouse, green colonies, write review.

push forth, and blossom.